Fucking People

Fucking People

My biological father died today….a white man.  The same white man who unknowingly shaped my whole worldview about race relations at an extremely early age, which eventually became the reason why I created the Onyx Truth.

I’m not sad, I’m not happy.  I’m just neutral.  I feel pain for the people who knew him & loved him.  When it comes to me it’s just strictly neutral because even though I knew the man, I didn’t KNOW the man.  It’s funny how everybody is treating me like some sort of VIP when I come around his family, although I do not mind because they all know my biological connection to the man, it still just feels weird because we never had much of a relationship.  It’s very similar to visiting a 2nd or 3rd cousin that you knew of but didn’t know…but this guy is responsible for me being alive.

I briefly spoke to him the night before he passed.  Due to his condition, the conversation was pretty much one-way.  Some people told me that I should just let loose any frustrations I’ve had inside in regards to him & his decision to not be a part of my life and I seriously contemplated that.  But when I saw him literally within his last hours, all ill will I had towards him faded away.  All the negative thoughts I had about meeting his family faded away as well.  I literally just became neutral.  It’s very hard to explain in words.

He passed away 7:30 am this morning & again, I felt neutral.  But I did begin to think about how his absence from my life along with the reasons why eventually helped me to form my view of the world in regards to race relations.

Whether people want to acknowledge racism exists or not, whether people choose to participate in racism or not…when you clock out from this world, that’s it…you’re done.  Skin color no longer becomes a factor as far as Mother Nature is concerned.  You’re just bag of bones on your way to being returned to the earth.  That’s it.

It’s crazy how people of color have to go through life constantly being on guard or made hyper aware of their skin color compared to white people and it shouldn’t be that way…but unfortunately it is.  But at the end of the day, when we die, ALL of us shall be returned to the one being that truly does not give a damn what color you are…Mother Nature.

Fucking people.

Light skin dude with an opinion
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